Friendzoned~

Yesterday, I go hang out with my friends. We had discussed a lot topic but don’t know how suddenly talk about relationship. So I storied to my friend about my love story. And they came to conclusion I was about to being friendzoned.

That night I think a lot about the past, what we had done, where we had been; I came to conclusion that “Man, what had I done? Nothing there to hold us on.

Now, I notice that all the time I’m the one that being standing at the same point waiting for chance to came.

Heart break.. mind wandering.. hope fading..STOP!!

I just don’t want to think about it anymore. Right now in my heart my focus is to being a better man. I wanna made change.  I want everybody sees me change for better and the best, be the perfect leo but with less arrogant.

P.s: this post is not share in my facebook. Lets just keep it to myself.

(my face is smiling but my heart is crying)

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 (and welcoming the new white babe)

Hey, wassup everybody. It’s been a long time since my last post. Nothing but more important here I would like to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year. May the year of dragon bless us with luck, health and wealth.

This post was supposed to be made on the first day of Chinese New Year but due to my serious laziness I decide to delay it (another great excuse in my life :P). My long delay is not because I am lack of idea but I’m on a holiday mood (Wohoo!!). This year I already had a good jump start compare to the year before. So much, my confident had gain back (but this time I will keep it cool because I learned from the past).

What I did during Chinese New Year??

Nothing much apart of eating, reunion with my relatives, gathering with my friends, and earning some extra income :P

What my next plan ahead??

There is still a lot to be done. But I decided to do it slowly but surely because I got 1 month before my internship. So I got a lot of time :P

What my heart intended to do next??

First of all, I want to restore humanity (sound serious). It’s seems hard but I think I can do it.

Alright, nothing to talk about anymore. Maybe on my next post if I’m not lazy :P  

before ending this post i would like to introduce my new white babe to everyone :P

Gong Xi Fatt Cai

:)

What I Gonna Do..

Hey, it’s a brand new 2012. Wonder if everybody feel more courage and energetic this year (Come on, it’s not the end of the world yet. Believe me). I’m now 22 and going to 23 this year and I have been 3^rd year in the university (gonna end my suffering soon. YEAY!).

So what I gonna do for this year? Something big? Something small?

Nobody can guess my next move. LOL.

Here is something that I gonna do this year:

1. Finish my final exam and get out from this place.

2. Enjoy my holiday and gather with as many friends as I can.

3. Spend my time with family and my responsibility as son and brother.

4. Doing the best for internship.

5. Not forgotten, I wanna let everybody see that I change; for better of course.

Strike for the goal~

Watch out for the brand new me. It’s gonna rip everyone apart (just a hyperbola :P). Actually the above statements are the thing that I can promise. Deep down in my heart there is a lot more (just like anyone else). 

My advice for everyone else is just to keep it to yourself because you know yourself better than anyone else.

p.s: I’m just bored for this study week. So I made this post to entertain myself :P & I am already entering holiday mood too. PEACE~

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012

Tik tok tik tok..buzzzzzzzzzzzz

Happy New Year 2012 to everyone!!

Lets take a deep breath and be grateful to welcome another wonderful year ahead.

Looking back into the past, there’s a lot happy, sad, joy and fear moment that hard to be forget. The feeling like it just happened yesterday (this prove time passes very fast).

This post I will just made it short because on this New Year I will have my exam (that’s torturing while other is celebrating).

Here, I would like to wish my entire friend that will have exam today best of luck. Let’s keep on fighting. And to my family, I wish them healthy as always. LOVE THEM. For the one I care, I wish she know that I always care. Only time will prove it. For my brothers, I wish our friendship be stronger. Thanks for being my buddy all the time.

Also for those I hurt, I would like to apologize to them. I never intended but sometimes as human I do made mistakes. For my haters, I just hope that you guys grow up (start seeing things from other people perspectives and you will understand others people situation).  For those who emo, I wish that this year will be a better year for you (be more optimistic because it’s not the end of the world). Lastly, for those stubborn I hope that you learn to accept and forgive.

Alright, gonna end this post now. Below are my facebook profile pictures. Looking back at the photos, I do see changes in me. So, I suggest everyone to take 5minutes to view your profile pictures to see how much you changes.

my facebook profile picture =)

p.s: today was also a very meaningful day because I had established my blog  for 1 year. Thanks for those who view and comment on my post. Really appreciate it.

Wondering~

P.s: We never been to the beach together. Maybe one day we will made it.

27-11-2011-HAPPY DAY

This is the happiest day in my life since I came to Kelantan. Surprisingly, I was still able to find a fraction of happiness at here. And it was the craziest day at here too. There is a lot thing I wanna share but my mind is so cramped.

So I decide to allow the photos speak out in this blog.

Knock! Knock!

me and the deer at the park^^

me and the fountain at the park

me at tutti frutti

tutti frutti 1

tutti frutti 2

tutti frutti 3

tutti frutti 4

tutti frutti 5

trutti frutti 6

trutti frutti 7

trutti frutti 8

Sarcasm~ Bazinga! :P

Sarcasm is a new word for me but this word actually had existed around me quite a long time (since I was born to this cruel ruled world :P). Finally, I find this word to define people around me- sarcasm.

So, my definition for sarcasm means the use of unpleasant remarks with the intention to hurt people’s feeling. Ever wonder where I learn this world. I learn it from a comedy The Big Bang Theory (the comedies that I recommend everyone to watch. BAZINGA~).

Ay!

This post is not on The Big Bang Theory review (although I would give a 8.5 out 10 for this comedy^^).  But I wanna talk about how people sarcasm me. Maybe in the comedy it looks funny but in the reality it hurts and shatters me into pieces.

Story #1

It happens back at my university (my life *UCK here) where I just did my ear piercing. For me wearing an earring it was kind of fashion but for them it’s a taboo. Many people sarcasm me whether with intention or not.

Some say guy wearing an earring will bring bad luck (kinda right since I meet you bunch of as*). Some say guy wearing an earring is gay (kiss my as*). I rather play basketball than Barbie :P

Story #2

Also happen at my university, where my housemates sarcasm on how I look. A guy which is skinnier than me told me that look too thin and reminds me to eat more. Another roommate who just wears like a kid told me to dress up better. Sometimes I wonder did they even stare at themselves in the mirror for 5 minutes (I did this all the time and remind myself “I ain’t created perfect but I am trying my best to be perfect”).

Blah Blah Blah.. Not in the mood to talk about the past because I learn that we can’t change the past but we can change the future. So peps let’s move on.

Here is the advice I would like to share when you be sarcasm:

BUCK UP!!

That’s right buck up peps. No matters how hard their word hit you, you stay and stood still. Show them that you’re more than a survivor; a fighter. Don’t give up or step back. Its only show them you are weak and easier target for them. Thanks them for sarcasm-ing me (it makes me a stronger person everyday).

And lastly, don’t sarcasm. It’s hurt no matter light or heavy. You never know what consequences your word can bring to people. Think twice before you speak (where people seldom do).  Never too late make a change buddy. PEACE!

bucking up myself at the gym
from physical to emotional
:)