I guess I miss her..

It never had come to me that my last two week of internship would be so surprising. She came in to my life caught me in unprepared situation. This is how I meet her.

It all begins when she walks into the lab with my supervisor. The first moment I saw her in my mind I was like “Geez, such a beautiful visitor. I must show some good impression :P”. Then, my supervisor introduces her as a staff. I was like ‘WOW’. I guess I’m the first guy that talk to her in the lab (feel honors to be that guy.LOL.). So, we had a chat about where she is from, where she studied and blah blah blah. One thing I’m clear she is elder than me.

On her first working day, she went out lunch with me because she doesn’t have friends there yet. So, I’m afraid of being awkward and eventually I ask other staff to accompany me too. LOL. Damn! I’m just a shy guy that moment (where’s the beast in me had gone that time).

I tried my best to guide her about working in this lab (it’s awkward because she a staff and I’m trainee). Her appearance and characteristic actually resemble my crush. She is cool and mature. That’s why I feel so close to her. I keep watching her for time to time (I’m not stalking her but just to made sure she is comfortable with the surrounding). At first it was just an act of pity, so I help her out a lot. But as time pass by, I think I get jealous though when she is talking with other guys.

Why am I getting jealous? I gonna leave in this few days. I’m not sure about my feeling at that time.

Anyway, the last day of my internship everything just as usual. I leave but my heart is kind of heavy (not sure because I’m worry for her or had feeling for her). I’m also not sure if she had the same feeling for me because the way she looks into my eye; it’s different like she had a lot things she wanna tell me. I wish I’m wrong this time.

I feel guilty. I guess I just miss much my crush too much that I saw her in another girl. Maybe, this is just another test from God to prove my loyalty in love or is it just another destiny. I guess she will never saw this post because I not gonna share. Sorry, I keep my feeling again this time.

p.s: Let’s destiny decide what the future looks like.

i'm just like the mobile..