Sign Language..

WOW! 

Hey, guys! 

I am surprised by how the time fly pass so fast. Back two weeks ago it’s my birthday. And this week is about to be the end of the August (so many thing to do yet so little time is given). Not sure if time passes fast or not enough time (I making a 9GAG joke here. Sounds lame =.=).

I wondering what had everyone did in this August. Many of you sure had been travelling, working or just enjoying sleeping (just like me :P). Apart of sleeping, I did find some interesting things to do (this statement will surely surprise a lot of you).

Firstly, I finished my internship report. It took me quite some time to finished my report (I think I use about 1 month++).  Seriously, I am clueless for the first time when I’m doing this report. The format given is to generalize. I almost give up but somehow with the guide and advise of my senior, I finished it (really thanks them but I just don’t know how to express it to them). So, I would like to say 

“THANK YOU” 

to them at my post. I wish them blessed by God wherever they are.

Being busy with my internship report, I still manage to find some free time for myself. Currently, my latest interest is to learn body language. Ya, it’s really fun to learn and it’s not that hard. Hopefully, someday I can really practice it with other. Actually, we are also using sign language unconsciously. Maybe, when you are mad, you will pull out some middle finger. LOL. That’s a bad example. Sign language doesn’t used bad language anyway.

That’s for my current status. I wish everyone here find some interesting things to do instead of wasting your time. Time can’t be returned once it spends. So spend it wisely especially when you still had the youth desire. YOLO! (This is a good way to express it). Till next time, folks. Peace out!

p.s: Actually, I like to observe people body language to analyze their behavior. Most of them are bad but I had seen some good too. Not all apples are rotten.

This is how you show 'noob' to everyone :P

That Boy..

When I walk, I walk alone..

When I fight, I fight alone..

When I cry, I cry alone..

When I die, I die alone.

Hey, wassup buddy and for those who accidently found my blog?? What do you thing about this poem??  I made it when I was 7(if I’m not mistaken). This poem had been with me around 16 year. Maybe some of you might think this poem is too emo but for me it gave me so much strength to keep fighting this whole life. 

So, today I want to share a story of a boy who struggle to grow up.

This boy was left alone since he aged 3 survives by himself alone in his home. That unforgettable afternoon still haunted the boy. When the heavy rain splashed down and lightning striking from angle, it feels like the world is going to end for that boy. His cry reaches nobody. Everything in the house falls apart. He cries but his heart is strong. He stood up and brave through that afternoon alone (but still came into his nightmare till today).

His life moves on like any other normal kids out there but with a broken heart. His parent keeps broking their promise. That boy is so naïve back then, he just keeps his broken heart to himself (it’s so hard because no one there to listen his heart). When he is 12, his parent promises him that they will reward him if he scores for the exam. The boy did score the exam but the reward is never there for him. He is disappointed but learned it is not easy to keep promise (he never believe anyone promise since then).

In his teenage life the boy still struggle. He had a dream (now remains a dream) to be a basketball superstar. He is almost there but his parent is no supporting him. So that boy gives up his dream and put another scar on his heart. He never gets what he wanted. He had to earn it himself (he buy his handphone himself, he buy his basketball shoes himself, he buy his own cloth and gear, he pay for his own license test). He never asks money from his family at the age of 17.

During the high school year, he been considered the most useless in the family. He fails to perform well in exam to enter the university. Everyday, he daydreams in the class. Somehow, his burning desire for success is still there. He decided to give a last try. Every night, he study and do revision from 10pm till 5am. Everyday, he only sleeps for 2 hours. He looks like a zombie, his grey hairs appear but he knows that’s the only way to prove himself.

Finally, he successfully proves himself. He surpassed everyone. From zero to hero, keeps everyone stun by his success. They don’t know what the pain he had gone through for this success (so tiresome). He made it to the university but there is a bad news. He had been send to an unknown university to study for an unknown course. Suppose he decide to reject it and pursue medic degree but he had to accept it due to the family struggling income. He still that naïve to protect every of his family member. Eventually, his family struggle is over (he made a right decision) but his struggle remain there. Another scar is made.

Of all these scars he earned, he became a wise man. Foresee the future and taking every measure to avoid any mistake in his life but he still struggle in his life wondering when it will end. His pressure is mounting as more and more responsible is hitting on him. Sometimes, he just wishes to end his life. His heart is strong although it breakdown sometimes. He keep pushing on and believe one day he will earn a better place in life.

p.s: Today is his birthday but his soul already died 20 years ago. It’s only his heart that made him keep fighting today.

What I watched at Youtube..

So, it’s a busy month for me (I guess not only for me but everyone since July is the month without holiday).  Don’t feel down everyone because we had brace ourselves through this tough month (give yourself an applause and hug :P).

So, I get an idea to post when I am watching videos on Youtube. I can’t sleep that night after watching those videos (not a horror video anyway). I wandering do I have a dream (I mean ambition). Yes, I had it when I was a kid.

I still remember my ambition is to be a superstar. Million fans come rushing to me for my autograph.  What’s left is only dream. Nowadays, I don’t dream anymore. I being more reality to myself (know my limits and try to be a better man).

When I go Youtube to watch video, I feel so touched. I see those Youtuber (such as Smosh, Shane Dawson, Ryan Higa, DanKhoo, Germani and Jinnyboy) making video with so much passion. They got only one motive, to entertain their fans and deliver their messages to their fans (that’s was two. teHee). Let’s say if I am given a chance to make a change. I really want to join them (but I never make a Youtube video before). I also wish to be like them inspiring others (not giving up their dream). Man, it’s such a wonderful world.

Anyway, I still have to snap back to the reality world. My time for dreaming is so over. Now, my time has come. I have to walk the walk. Maybe, someday I can succeed my dream. Maybe, a superstar in other field.

P.s: I like watching Youtube. I think I can sing better than Justin Bieber :P

Do I have the potential to be a superstar? I think I can act thou
 :P

List of Sometimes I..

Hey, it’s July. Bid farewell to June. Yeay, I’m in a good mood for this brand new month (my favorite team, Spain made it to the final as expected). Therefore, I gonna post something I sometimes will do. Maybe something people seldom see I do or never had seen me do before.

AHA! I present to you the list of thing I sometimes do..

1. Sometimes I can sleep for a whole day

2. Sometimes I like to daydreaming

3. Sometimes I like to act cool

4. Sometimes I pretend to be noob in front of others (true story)

5. Sometimes I think I had superpower (:P)

6. Sometimes I like to analyze people behavior

7. Sometimes I feel that I can read people’s mind (I wish I can)

8. Sometimes I made crazy post (like this one)

9. Sometimes I like to annoy my dog (LOL)

10. Sometimes I feel single is better

11. Sometimes I had a bad hair day

12. Sometimes I forget about my crush (when playing game)

13. Sometimes I can live without my mobile

14. Sometimes I can live without facebook

15. Sometimes I think my crush purposely ignore me (LOL)

16. Sometimes I curse (Oh, God..Why?)

17. Sometimes I like free publicity (YOLO)

18. Sometimes I’m just lazy to think too much

p.s: I guess that’s all. If there are others, I might have forgotten. Sometimes I forgot :P

Helping others..

Hey, wassup guys!

Actually, today I’m not really in the mood to write a post (because the England team didn’t made it to the semi final but my top favorite team, Spain was in the semi final of Euro 2012. Good job!). Therefore, I decide to write a short post here (maybe..)

Nah, my post ain’t about football (maybe next time if I’m really bored and out of idea). My topic of the day will be about helping people.

Honestly, how many of us out there are really helping people with their kind heart? Without thinking about reward..

How many of us when saw an accident, will rush toward to help without thinking much? Instead of standing on the side and keep saying those words “pity that guy”.

I won’t dare to admit that I’m the person that will help people with kind heart. Sometimes, I do think of reward (even get frustrated if I don’t get the reward). I try my best to get rid of this bad attitude. One simple step, just don’t expect too much when you helping someone (even though you are not really willing to help that person). Less expectation less disappointment. I guess I’m right at this point.

In the past, I help a lot people but didn’t get any compliment and yet being used. My friends only remember me when they need something from me. At that time, I feel disappointed because I expect too much from them (I thought we will struggle through together).

Now, I learned to handle this kind of friend and I don’t get frustrated anymore. One solution, avoid them and you will be happier without them around you. Find your true friends that will stand with you (I really found some maybe just take a longer time compare to others).

In the end, helping other is an easy and simple task. All you need is your heart.

if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, i'll sail the way to find you

p.s: Sometimes I do test my friend’s kindness. What a bad guy I am. Sorry :P

I guess I miss her..

It never had come to me that my last two week of internship would be so surprising. She came in to my life caught me in unprepared situation. This is how I meet her.

It all begins when she walks into the lab with my supervisor. The first moment I saw her in my mind I was like “Geez, such a beautiful visitor. I must show some good impression :P”. Then, my supervisor introduces her as a staff. I was like ‘WOW’. I guess I’m the first guy that talk to her in the lab (feel honors to be that guy.LOL.). So, we had a chat about where she is from, where she studied and blah blah blah. One thing I’m clear she is elder than me.

On her first working day, she went out lunch with me because she doesn’t have friends there yet. So, I’m afraid of being awkward and eventually I ask other staff to accompany me too. LOL. Damn! I’m just a shy guy that moment (where’s the beast in me had gone that time).

I tried my best to guide her about working in this lab (it’s awkward because she a staff and I’m trainee). Her appearance and characteristic actually resemble my crush. She is cool and mature. That’s why I feel so close to her. I keep watching her for time to time (I’m not stalking her but just to made sure she is comfortable with the surrounding). At first it was just an act of pity, so I help her out a lot. But as time pass by, I think I get jealous though when she is talking with other guys.

Why am I getting jealous? I gonna leave in this few days. I’m not sure about my feeling at that time.

Anyway, the last day of my internship everything just as usual. I leave but my heart is kind of heavy (not sure because I’m worry for her or had feeling for her). I’m also not sure if she had the same feeling for me because the way she looks into my eye; it’s different like she had a lot things she wanna tell me. I wish I’m wrong this time.

I feel guilty. I guess I just miss much my crush too much that I saw her in another girl. Maybe, this is just another test from God to prove my loyalty in love or is it just another destiny. I guess she will never saw this post because I not gonna share. Sorry, I keep my feeling again this time.

p.s: Let’s destiny decide what the future looks like.

i'm just like the mobile..

After 4 Month (Internship)

Yeay!!~~~~~

LEAKED: This is what I do..

Finally, I finished my 4 month struggle of my internship :P

Hahaha..

Not really struggle though. Overall, everything was smooth. I learn new stuff. I meet new people. See new faces. And handle new attitude too.

Now, I can take a deep breath because I don’t need to wake up early anymore. (the best part is I can watch EURO 2012).Weeeeee~

Pity for some of my friend there who still doing their internship there (Here, I wish them the best of luck to finish their internship smoother than mine).

On the first week of my internship, I never thought that time pass by so fast. At the last week, I find that my internship is over so fast that now I miss every moment I was there.

So what I did there for 4 month?

My job is rather simple. Nothing difficult (that’s everyone says until they try it out themselves). The hard part is when I was there is to handle people attitude. Different people came with different attitude. So, I having hard time to satisfied everyone (from the point of attitude, please don’t think others :P) which I end up screwing one by one. Here, really want to make a big apology to everyone that I hurt along this 4 month. I have tried my best to work it out. Maybe someday you will see my point here.

Other bad thing happens too..

Maybe this is the bringing from my university. As long as I making new friends, I never have any difficulty. Yet I have hard time making new friends there. I can see every new friend that I made from my internship is fading from me among this 4 month. I guess someone just bad mouth me. But it won’t hurt me anymore (because I already use to it). Maybe, you guys have to use some new trick against me. So why do I bothers telling it in my post? The reason is I feel sad and disappointed to my new friends that I just made. He would rather listen to people bad mouthing than evaluate it himself. I guess everyone prefer easy way by taking the shortcut (I can see they can’t go far).

Now, let’s talk about the happy moment there.

I get to meet some crazy people there. Just hanging out with him is a lot of fun. Chatting about the future and the past like there is no tomorrow (can you imagine that). More more and more..

Eating satay.. Eating kerang bakar..Jogging at the stadium..Watching movie..Swimming..Playing basketball..Counter strike..Half life..

Conclusion, doing internship is enjoyful. I just can’t wait to graduate and start working. Working is fun and at the same time is stressful. But we can overcome it by good attitude and good teammate.

p.s: At the last, the staff attack me with egg. I gonna revenge on them. Soon~~ >:D