I hate this part..

What is the feeling when you want something but you can’t get it? Seriously, I hate this feeling. When I was a kid, I always thought when I grow up I won’t have this feeling anymore (as I can own anything I want and nothing can stop me). Anyway, my idea was so wrong in the first place. Till today, I am still being hunted by this feeling.

So after a long introduction (where I usually do on my school essay :P), I would like to enter to the main topic of my post. So this happen to me very recently (guess back few month ago) where I meet this girl. She was kind and nice; beautiful from inside and outside. Back then she was fine (at least she greet me like others). Everything started to change when my friend set up a fake date for me with her. She started to ignore me (she even purposely faded away from me when we meet). I feel some kind of awkwardness in this situation.

It’s not what in my heart to start a relationship with her. Deep in my heart, all I want is only a simple friendship. Right now all I wish is to clear thing out. I hope that I have the chances to slow talk with her where I can explain everything out. I just don’t like this feeling. I would rather lost a relationship than a friendship with her.

lets be friend^^

Exhausted!!

Fuhh!! I suppose that I’m off today but I feel damn exhausted. The reason is I just went play basketball today (I mean not on my PSP. LOL). It been two month since last I touched the basketball (I miss basketball so much). I guess I have been too busy with my part time job. Apart of that, my hand had injury previously (therefore, I need a long rest>>hibernate :P ).

So, today at the basketball court I play just like usual nothing much change. But I noticed my time reaction had been getting slower and stamina had run down faster than before. OMG!! I have to back to basic once again.

That’s ok for me as long as my hand had heal properly although I sometimes will feel the pain (especially when I playing my PSP for too long :P ).

LONG LIVE BASKETBALL

J

Broken Bridge..

OMG!! I just miss my blogging for the whole June. I have been too busy on my part time work (actually it doesn’t seem like part time). Almost every day I work from morning to the night (exhausted). Finally the fair is over and I feel glad but sometimes I miss the moment too (meeting a lot of new friends).

So, for July I will be quite free although I’m still working (happy). Therefore, I decide to make a post today. Emm.. (How I going to start this..)

OK!! Actually, I get the chance to be closer to the girl I admire for a long time. But the feeling is not the same anymore. The feeling is like we seem so close yet so far. Maybe we have been separated for quite a long time.  I guess she still can’t forget about that guy (which she thinks far better than me).Yea, now I’m really clueless.

Yes, I have to admit it that I ain’t no perfect because I’m still human. The negative side of me told me to give up and forget about her. However, my positive side told me to buff up and impress her. So, I decide to cooperate with my positive side to impress her. I know one day she will be impress (I will stay by her side). Currently, everything had fallen back to zero. I treat her like my friend and the way round (nothing more). 

Hopefully, we can get close back like we use to be (Sincerely, I miss that moment a lot)

Once there was a bridge construction

That was about to be done

Due to some reason

The bridge get broken and falling apart

Everything now is back to non

But I will rebuild it

Because I know it was worth it

=]