Equality..

Hey, it’s October and it’s time wake Billie Joe Armstrong up (such a lame joke for my opening).

So my post today is about EQUALITY.

HOW many of you out there believe with equality?

And

HOW many of you out there understand that nothing in this world is fair.

For me, there is no such thing as equality. It is impossible to exist in the real world (just exist in a perfect world). Understand that there is nothing is perfect (so practice won’t make you perfect but just near perfect :P). Apart of that, I grow up and adapted in a double standard world. Wherever I go, there sure is a double standard (I always try my best to make a difference but I only can do that much). Let’s me give you an example, a hot girl will sure been treated better wherever they go compare a more decent looking girl (Whatta perfect example. LOL).

When talk about equality, I suppose men and women have the equal right. Then, why there are still men have to wait for women when going out on date? Why men must always confessed first? Why there is special coach for women? Let’s imagine everything go the other way. LOL. That’s impossible (told ya). Alright, enough talk about women right (my advice never offend women :P).

Anyway, I still respect women that dare to compete with other men.  They don’t think because they are women they must sit in the kitchen and make sandwich. They go out and show what they got. Nowadays, there is more and more female to lead a big company even some country. Thousand respect to them.

So what recent status about me? A girl confessed to me (this also give me the idea for my post).  Can anyone believe this? However, I rejected it (sorry maybe the timing is not good). Anyway, her confession did touched me (it’s been awhile for a girl to confess to me and I respect brave girl).Right now, my focus is really to score well in my final year. I really barely able to think about love stuff. Give me Megan Fox, I will still reject it (NO regret). Give me my crush, I will reject also (I has a titanium heart now. LOL).

Alright, I guess that all I gonna share right now. Before I end my post, I would like to apologize if any of my post here offended anyone out there. It’s just for the purpose of sharing my moment with everyone.  Not forgotten, thanks to those who read my post. Why don’t you comment and share your opinion on my post. It might also give me idea to my post.

p.s: There is no fair game in life but there is rule for every game. Don’t break the rule but play with the rule. 

Are you that DAMN sure??

Hey, is me again September..

Let’s skip the part how’s everyone..

Today, I wanna talk about arrogant. I had to admit that I had this bad attitude back then. But that is the past. I’m trying to be a better man.

Yet, I saw some image of my past reflected on few of person around me (I guess this is karma). LOL.

There is a funny and sad side about it. The funny thing is it where I see how immature I am back then. Meanwhile, the sad thing is I can’t do anything about it. I wish I was strong enough to change the consequences. But, I know as time pass each of us will gain their lesson of life (it’s just the matter of time).

MOST of the arrogant people that I had met are self-deceiving. When they are good at something, they will definitely show off and concluded others are weak (not even giving people a chance). When they are weak at something, they will just conclude the thing is not benefiting them. Let me give an example. On exam, when this person can’t score well. He will definitely blame it on other rather than on his own mistake.

From my observation, they are strong by their look but totally weak on their emotional and moral. Their self-deceiving are use to mask their weakness. There is no need to be afraid of them. My best advice to overcome ignorance people

For those arrogant people out there, there are few things you might wanna think before you speak out your mind.

Are you that DAMN perfect? That you are the only right and everyone around you is wrong.Are you that DAMN good? Just because you had a better life than others. Please put yourself in others situation.Are you that DAMN important in this world? There are 7 billions of people in this world. Do you know your rank?Are you DAMN sure people really care what you say? That everyone must follow your order. Had you ever ask others opinion?
Are you DAMN sure you are stronger than your opponent? Or your opponents don’t even give a DAMN about you.Are you DAMN sure your opponent doesn't pretending? Your opponent might just waited to see how you fall.Do you remember every DAMN friend that helps you? Or you just walk away from them when they needed your help.Do you see your DAMN friend as a leaping stone or your brother in arms? You never know who hurt more if your friends bite you back.

p.s: I am unable to upload photo using instagram at here. Wish I can show everyone the beautiful view here

The Lame Post..

Hey, everybody it’s been two week I’m back as student to continue my study at my university. Now my campus had moved from the small town to a well-preserved forest. Feel so regret (I should had been grateful back then).

Since, I am bored here. Tonight I will try to made a post (although I’m not inspired to write tonight :P)

Emm, let’s talk about my campus.

Let me begin by saying that the campus is nice; the building of the campus is tall and futuristic. Everyone wouldn’t believe that there is such a building in the middle of the jungle. Another big leap of success to my university (I’m proud of it).

On the negative side, the facilities around my campus are too limited. Maybe, it’s just the matter of time. I had faith in my university (Maybe one day, it will be superb. We never know what’s the future hold).

Alright, enough talk about my university here. Let’s talk about me. My current situation here is fine (maybe a little bored). I’m been busy and worry for my final year project title. I am having hard time to find a suitable supervisor for my final year project (for some reason). There is also a little injury on me (the injury that remind me of the past). I really hate this part.

But, I think it doesn’t hurt that bad this time. Maybe, I started to forget about the past. I started to let go of my past. Maybe, I am moving on. Or maybe I just wanted a vengeance to my past.

Alright, enough talk about me. I’m ending my post here today (I’m uninspired now). Maybe, next time I will find something more interesting to talk about.

Good bye for now. Peace.

p.s: I’m giving my best to tame the beast in me. Wish me luck.

The view of my campus

Time to Grow Up..

Wassup!!

I’m back at my university. I’m so happy that I’m now already in the fourth year (where I’m in the senior’s year). 1 year left and I gonna graduate and begin my real working life (can’t wait for it).

Since, I’m so bored today, so I decided to make a post (a quick post). I just wanna ask;

How’s my family been doing??

How’s my buddy been doing??

How’s the weather at my hometown??

What’s the latest thing happen to each of you there??

LOL. I know it sounds silly because I just been here for a few days (sounds homesick). Anyway, I’m doing fine here (stronger than ever). This time I came back with a clear mindset. I gonna set a better goal this time (actually got inspired by one of my friend). I wish I had done it earlier back then (so regret). But, everything had passed, I here for the future. Let’s just wish me had a better success in the final year.

Alright, I’m done with my post today. Take care everyone. See you when I see you.

New room with a new hope

p.s: I just wanna update my current status. Maybe many here might think I am homesick but actually I’m not.

Sign Language..

WOW! 

Hey, guys! 

I am surprised by how the time fly pass so fast. Back two weeks ago it’s my birthday. And this week is about to be the end of the August (so many thing to do yet so little time is given). Not sure if time passes fast or not enough time (I making a 9GAG joke here. Sounds lame =.=).

I wondering what had everyone did in this August. Many of you sure had been travelling, working or just enjoying sleeping (just like me :P). Apart of sleeping, I did find some interesting things to do (this statement will surely surprise a lot of you).

Firstly, I finished my internship report. It took me quite some time to finished my report (I think I use about 1 month++).  Seriously, I am clueless for the first time when I’m doing this report. The format given is to generalize. I almost give up but somehow with the guide and advise of my senior, I finished it (really thanks them but I just don’t know how to express it to them). So, I would like to say 

“THANK YOU” 

to them at my post. I wish them blessed by God wherever they are.

Being busy with my internship report, I still manage to find some free time for myself. Currently, my latest interest is to learn body language. Ya, it’s really fun to learn and it’s not that hard. Hopefully, someday I can really practice it with other. Actually, we are also using sign language unconsciously. Maybe, when you are mad, you will pull out some middle finger. LOL. That’s a bad example. Sign language doesn’t used bad language anyway.

That’s for my current status. I wish everyone here find some interesting things to do instead of wasting your time. Time can’t be returned once it spends. So spend it wisely especially when you still had the youth desire. YOLO! (This is a good way to express it). Till next time, folks. Peace out!

p.s: Actually, I like to observe people body language to analyze their behavior. Most of them are bad but I had seen some good too. Not all apples are rotten.

This is how you show 'noob' to everyone :P

That Boy..

When I walk, I walk alone..

When I fight, I fight alone..

When I cry, I cry alone..

When I die, I die alone.

Hey, wassup buddy and for those who accidently found my blog?? What do you thing about this poem??  I made it when I was 7(if I’m not mistaken). This poem had been with me around 16 year. Maybe some of you might think this poem is too emo but for me it gave me so much strength to keep fighting this whole life. 

So, today I want to share a story of a boy who struggle to grow up.

This boy was left alone since he aged 3 survives by himself alone in his home. That unforgettable afternoon still haunted the boy. When the heavy rain splashed down and lightning striking from angle, it feels like the world is going to end for that boy. His cry reaches nobody. Everything in the house falls apart. He cries but his heart is strong. He stood up and brave through that afternoon alone (but still came into his nightmare till today).

His life moves on like any other normal kids out there but with a broken heart. His parent keeps broking their promise. That boy is so naïve back then, he just keeps his broken heart to himself (it’s so hard because no one there to listen his heart). When he is 12, his parent promises him that they will reward him if he scores for the exam. The boy did score the exam but the reward is never there for him. He is disappointed but learned it is not easy to keep promise (he never believe anyone promise since then).

In his teenage life the boy still struggle. He had a dream (now remains a dream) to be a basketball superstar. He is almost there but his parent is no supporting him. So that boy gives up his dream and put another scar on his heart. He never gets what he wanted. He had to earn it himself (he buy his handphone himself, he buy his basketball shoes himself, he buy his own cloth and gear, he pay for his own license test). He never asks money from his family at the age of 17.

During the high school year, he been considered the most useless in the family. He fails to perform well in exam to enter the university. Everyday, he daydreams in the class. Somehow, his burning desire for success is still there. He decided to give a last try. Every night, he study and do revision from 10pm till 5am. Everyday, he only sleeps for 2 hours. He looks like a zombie, his grey hairs appear but he knows that’s the only way to prove himself.

Finally, he successfully proves himself. He surpassed everyone. From zero to hero, keeps everyone stun by his success. They don’t know what the pain he had gone through for this success (so tiresome). He made it to the university but there is a bad news. He had been send to an unknown university to study for an unknown course. Suppose he decide to reject it and pursue medic degree but he had to accept it due to the family struggling income. He still that naïve to protect every of his family member. Eventually, his family struggle is over (he made a right decision) but his struggle remain there. Another scar is made.

Of all these scars he earned, he became a wise man. Foresee the future and taking every measure to avoid any mistake in his life but he still struggle in his life wondering when it will end. His pressure is mounting as more and more responsible is hitting on him. Sometimes, he just wishes to end his life. His heart is strong although it breakdown sometimes. He keep pushing on and believe one day he will earn a better place in life.

p.s: Today is his birthday but his soul already died 20 years ago. It’s only his heart that made him keep fighting today.

What I watched at Youtube..

So, it’s a busy month for me (I guess not only for me but everyone since July is the month without holiday).  Don’t feel down everyone because we had brace ourselves through this tough month (give yourself an applause and hug :P).

So, I get an idea to post when I am watching videos on Youtube. I can’t sleep that night after watching those videos (not a horror video anyway). I wandering do I have a dream (I mean ambition). Yes, I had it when I was a kid.

I still remember my ambition is to be a superstar. Million fans come rushing to me for my autograph.  What’s left is only dream. Nowadays, I don’t dream anymore. I being more reality to myself (know my limits and try to be a better man).

When I go Youtube to watch video, I feel so touched. I see those Youtuber (such as Smosh, Shane Dawson, Ryan Higa, DanKhoo, Germani and Jinnyboy) making video with so much passion. They got only one motive, to entertain their fans and deliver their messages to their fans (that’s was two. teHee). Let’s say if I am given a chance to make a change. I really want to join them (but I never make a Youtube video before). I also wish to be like them inspiring others (not giving up their dream). Man, it’s such a wonderful world.

Anyway, I still have to snap back to the reality world. My time for dreaming is so over. Now, my time has come. I have to walk the walk. Maybe, someday I can succeed my dream. Maybe, a superstar in other field.

P.s: I like watching Youtube. I think I can sing better than Justin Bieber :P

Do I have the potential to be a superstar? I think I can act thou
 :P

List of Sometimes I..

Hey, it’s July. Bid farewell to June. Yeay, I’m in a good mood for this brand new month (my favorite team, Spain made it to the final as expected). Therefore, I gonna post something I sometimes will do. Maybe something people seldom see I do or never had seen me do before.

AHA! I present to you the list of thing I sometimes do..

1. Sometimes I can sleep for a whole day

2. Sometimes I like to daydreaming

3. Sometimes I like to act cool

4. Sometimes I pretend to be noob in front of others (true story)

5. Sometimes I think I had superpower (:P)

6. Sometimes I like to analyze people behavior

7. Sometimes I feel that I can read people’s mind (I wish I can)

8. Sometimes I made crazy post (like this one)

9. Sometimes I like to annoy my dog (LOL)

10. Sometimes I feel single is better

11. Sometimes I had a bad hair day

12. Sometimes I forget about my crush (when playing game)

13. Sometimes I can live without my mobile

14. Sometimes I can live without facebook

15. Sometimes I think my crush purposely ignore me (LOL)

16. Sometimes I curse (Oh, God..Why?)

17. Sometimes I like free publicity (YOLO)

18. Sometimes I’m just lazy to think too much

p.s: I guess that’s all. If there are others, I might have forgotten. Sometimes I forgot :P

Helping others..

Hey, wassup guys!

Actually, today I’m not really in the mood to write a post (because the England team didn’t made it to the semi final but my top favorite team, Spain was in the semi final of Euro 2012. Good job!). Therefore, I decide to write a short post here (maybe..)

Nah, my post ain’t about football (maybe next time if I’m really bored and out of idea). My topic of the day will be about helping people.

Honestly, how many of us out there are really helping people with their kind heart? Without thinking about reward..

How many of us when saw an accident, will rush toward to help without thinking much? Instead of standing on the side and keep saying those words “pity that guy”.

I won’t dare to admit that I’m the person that will help people with kind heart. Sometimes, I do think of reward (even get frustrated if I don’t get the reward). I try my best to get rid of this bad attitude. One simple step, just don’t expect too much when you helping someone (even though you are not really willing to help that person). Less expectation less disappointment. I guess I’m right at this point.

In the past, I help a lot people but didn’t get any compliment and yet being used. My friends only remember me when they need something from me. At that time, I feel disappointed because I expect too much from them (I thought we will struggle through together).

Now, I learned to handle this kind of friend and I don’t get frustrated anymore. One solution, avoid them and you will be happier without them around you. Find your true friends that will stand with you (I really found some maybe just take a longer time compare to others).

In the end, helping other is an easy and simple task. All you need is your heart.

if you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea, i'll sail the way to find you

p.s: Sometimes I do test my friend’s kindness. What a bad guy I am. Sorry :P

I guess I miss her..

It never had come to me that my last two week of internship would be so surprising. She came in to my life caught me in unprepared situation. This is how I meet her.

It all begins when she walks into the lab with my supervisor. The first moment I saw her in my mind I was like “Geez, such a beautiful visitor. I must show some good impression :P”. Then, my supervisor introduces her as a staff. I was like ‘WOW’. I guess I’m the first guy that talk to her in the lab (feel honors to be that guy.LOL.). So, we had a chat about where she is from, where she studied and blah blah blah. One thing I’m clear she is elder than me.

On her first working day, she went out lunch with me because she doesn’t have friends there yet. So, I’m afraid of being awkward and eventually I ask other staff to accompany me too. LOL. Damn! I’m just a shy guy that moment (where’s the beast in me had gone that time).

I tried my best to guide her about working in this lab (it’s awkward because she a staff and I’m trainee). Her appearance and characteristic actually resemble my crush. She is cool and mature. That’s why I feel so close to her. I keep watching her for time to time (I’m not stalking her but just to made sure she is comfortable with the surrounding). At first it was just an act of pity, so I help her out a lot. But as time pass by, I think I get jealous though when she is talking with other guys.

Why am I getting jealous? I gonna leave in this few days. I’m not sure about my feeling at that time.

Anyway, the last day of my internship everything just as usual. I leave but my heart is kind of heavy (not sure because I’m worry for her or had feeling for her). I’m also not sure if she had the same feeling for me because the way she looks into my eye; it’s different like she had a lot things she wanna tell me. I wish I’m wrong this time.

I feel guilty. I guess I just miss much my crush too much that I saw her in another girl. Maybe, this is just another test from God to prove my loyalty in love or is it just another destiny. I guess she will never saw this post because I not gonna share. Sorry, I keep my feeling again this time.

p.s: Let’s destiny decide what the future looks like.

i'm just like the mobile..

After 4 Month (Internship)

Yeay!!~~~~~

LEAKED: This is what I do..

Finally, I finished my 4 month struggle of my internship :P

Hahaha..

Not really struggle though. Overall, everything was smooth. I learn new stuff. I meet new people. See new faces. And handle new attitude too.

Now, I can take a deep breath because I don’t need to wake up early anymore. (the best part is I can watch EURO 2012).Weeeeee~

Pity for some of my friend there who still doing their internship there (Here, I wish them the best of luck to finish their internship smoother than mine).

On the first week of my internship, I never thought that time pass by so fast. At the last week, I find that my internship is over so fast that now I miss every moment I was there.

So what I did there for 4 month?

My job is rather simple. Nothing difficult (that’s everyone says until they try it out themselves). The hard part is when I was there is to handle people attitude. Different people came with different attitude. So, I having hard time to satisfied everyone (from the point of attitude, please don’t think others :P) which I end up screwing one by one. Here, really want to make a big apology to everyone that I hurt along this 4 month. I have tried my best to work it out. Maybe someday you will see my point here.

Other bad thing happens too..

Maybe this is the bringing from my university. As long as I making new friends, I never have any difficulty. Yet I have hard time making new friends there. I can see every new friend that I made from my internship is fading from me among this 4 month. I guess someone just bad mouth me. But it won’t hurt me anymore (because I already use to it). Maybe, you guys have to use some new trick against me. So why do I bothers telling it in my post? The reason is I feel sad and disappointed to my new friends that I just made. He would rather listen to people bad mouthing than evaluate it himself. I guess everyone prefer easy way by taking the shortcut (I can see they can’t go far).

Now, let’s talk about the happy moment there.

I get to meet some crazy people there. Just hanging out with him is a lot of fun. Chatting about the future and the past like there is no tomorrow (can you imagine that). More more and more..

Eating satay.. Eating kerang bakar..Jogging at the stadium..Watching movie..Swimming..Playing basketball..Counter strike..Half life..

Conclusion, doing internship is enjoyful. I just can’t wait to graduate and start working. Working is fun and at the same time is stressful. But we can overcome it by good attitude and good teammate.

p.s: At the last, the staff attack me with egg. I gonna revenge on them. Soon~~ >:D

Being a good listener..

Hey,its been awhile for me to update my blog(i m just buzy and lazy). So many thing i wanna share but just don't know which one is more important. So i started my post for this month with the shortest post. It's about being a good listener. Pheww~ it's seem easy (all we have to do is just listen). Nah. Never been that easy. Firstly, you have to put yourself into that person emotion. Second, you must refuse to show sign of you are bored with that persona story. Ya,many will just thought this a piece of cake (till you try it yourself). You will know how hard it is to keep listening of people whinning about how bad about their life. Why it is hard? Have anyone ever try wonder? I do. It's because of our big ego. They only want their story to be known but not to care about others story. They had the feeling that the whole world problem is in them(but it's only a small block). Ya, i do got something to whine too (sometimes). And everyone around me just think that "nah,this guy aint got problem". They are so wrong about me. I do got problem but i keep it to myself. I learn to handle them. I prefer to solve them instead of keep whinning. That's about it from me. P.s: only one month left for my internship to finished. So happy :)

FRUSTRATED!!

Today is a frustrating day for me. I feel like wanna !@#$% somebody. Don’t know why everyone like to pick on me. Maybe I’m just too easy going. Maybe I just smile too often. Maybe I am just being playful too often. Maybe I just too chill to often (everything is just too often).

Is it the above statement indicate that I’m f*cking frustrated? I guess 90% of the friends I knew will say ‘NO’

But I do believe that 99% person of my true friends will see me as

DAMN F*CKING FRUSTRATED

Alright, till now I guess nobody can guess what I’m so FRUSTRATED about. 

Here’s the thing that I’m FRUSTRATED about; people who just letting go their responsibility to others. Seriously dude please grow up and learn to be a responsible person. You are not a small kid anymore which when something happen you just let go everything to others. The situation is just like you run away from your pregnant wife because you unable to support the milk powder for the baby (I just try to say it in a humorous way although I am

DAMN FRUSTRATED).

The next thing I’m so FRUSTRATED about is people who gain benefit from others (in proverb we called that as using others as your stepping stone). 

You might think yourself as a f*cking genius but seriously ‘NO’. 

You might think I’m retarded because I am easy going on you but seriously ‘NO’. 

I know every of your f*cking moves and trick. One fact about me I’m a true basketballer. I predicted all your moves before you make a move. To conclude, I saw what you did there you as*hole. Learn that who the retard is now. What’s the point of using others? Why not trying it yourself? It’s time to think about it now. It’s never too late for everyone.

Jump to my next FRUSTRATED thing I wanna share about. It is this proverb a friend in need is a friend indeed. Not so accurate in my life today. My really true friends I guess I can count with this pair of hand. Put them on a little test they will reveal their true self. Worst some not even been tested already reveal themselves. When they have some trouble and issue, they will come find you. When you in trouble, he will give you a thousand, maybe million excuses. I guess it is good for you to live as a parasite. Keep it up if you think you’re on the right track. I will never stop you because it‘s your f*cking way.

At the end of the post, I’m still FRUSTRATED.

I’m smiling doesn’t mean I’m easy

I’m laughing doesn’t mean I’m cool

I’m chill doesn’t mean I’m weak

It’s either the truth hurt or you being true.

p.s: I’m so FRUSTRATEDthat I feels like wanna punch someone. So going bed early tonight and gonna punch someone there. F*ck U

Hey, wassup guy..

It's already the end of the month of March( April's fool is coming :p). Gonna admit it time passes really fast. In this time i met a lot of people(which mean i see more different attitude; some are good, some are worst).

Alright, so today my post will be on about human attitude. Back then, i meet alot people with worst attitude(not gonna name them here). The majority people i meet are hypocrite. They told you not to do this, not to do that but they will be the one doing all those stuff. So, i learn from the past. Just tell them stfu. Determine yourself and go for it peeps!!

The second type is the type that would like to steal your idea and will always lead you to the wrong way. This person i consider as the selfish type. They feel pleasure when they get to prank or trick you. To handle this type of person, one should avoid them as much as possible(they are the traumatised person so the revenge it on us).

Move on, another worst person i have meet currently is the type that keep on praising himself or herself. Dude, i'm totally annoyed with this type of person. This type of person keeps telling others how good he is and how hard he has been(what? You thing you are the only one running in the earth). Seriously, no one give a damn about it.

Not enough with that, i also meet people with super multi extra sensitive. People which feels a 10-second ringtone can annoyed them, people which feel annoyed when you wear earphone and talk with them, people that feel annoyed by your voice and keep asking you to shut up. What is wrong with the world today( can someone tell me)? Being sensitive is sweet but being too extra sensitive is sweat( if you know what i mean). OMG!! There's still more(backstabber, attention seeker, bitch, etc)

Man, i just don't meet bad attitude people. I do meet good attitude people. They are my true buddy. It's easy to notice who my true buddy is. They are the type i care the most and will definitely stand out with them.

Sometimes people ask me why i'm so emo, why i'm so down, why i so frustrated. Here i present you the answer. I just a mirror of your attitude. Never ask why i treat you differently(it's karma).

P.s: who says happy people don't have problem. It's just that they are good at handling their emotion. Respect for them :)

5 Awkward Moment In My Life

Wassup everyone..

Here am I again, updating my blog from my mobile again(yup, I'm so bored today that decided to share a post today.

So, what is awkward?

From Dictionary.com, akward is define as something embarassing. Does anyone of you out there had any awkawrd moment in your life? I gonna admit it.

Ladies and gentleman,

I present to you my 5 awkward moment in my life.

1. The awkward moment when everyone is busy doing something except you
2. The awkward moment when people talking to you and you are pretending listening (then your
friend ask you a question and you like what)
3. The awkward moment when you reply wrong message because you just scan through your friend
message
4. The awkward moment when you call the wrong person because they got the same name
5. The awkward moment when you made the wrong decision and you still play cool

Haha.. Thats my post today, hope everyone enjoy it and have a great week. Peace :)

P.s: try imagine this moment happen to you and will you feel awkward or is it just me thinking too much :p

My internship.. (After 1 month)

Fuhh..
time passes really fast..
Currently it's already 1 month i did my internship
Everything went smoothly right now (emm,maybe a bit obstacle).
Yup, i just recover from fever recently (the funny things is now my friend and the lab staff are sick :p)
Feel so sorry for them. Maybe i'm the reason they got sick.
Anyway, hopefully everyone recover quickly.


P.s:so happy my because already 1 month internship. 3 month left. Fighting \(^^)/

Rain On Me..

Here I am again

Miss my train again

Wonder when the next train gonna arrive

Standing alone on grey pavement

Man, I’m so regret

Because I let you go again

I close my eyes and pray

Wishing you will be back at side

But now all I had

Is just rain on me

Never should let you go

I know crying won't be enough so I stop crying.

My Internship..

Hey,wassup..

It’s already March. The month that is full of rain (makes me sleepy all the time). I love rain as long as I don’t have any outdoor activity (TEHEE). This few weeks I was so tired. Everyday had to wake up at 6.30am so that I won’t late to work. Yeayy!! I still late to work though (but it wasn’t my fault, the traffic).

So my latest status is that I currently doing my internship in a lab company at Shah Alam which is quite far from my home. My job is quite simple for this 2 weeks but I hope to learn more (stay hungry, stay foolish). Wish me all the best peps. Will be back for my latest status update. Peace!!

p.s: I have to go sleep early so that everyday I won’t look sleepy at the lab :P

Happy Valentine's Day 2012~

Hey, wassup everybody!!

It’s 14^th February 2012 and it’s Valentine’s Day. Yeayyyyy!!

For the guys and girls out there that is single just like me. Just chill out. There is nothing wrong being single. Don’t get bother by people opinion of you being a single (tell them screw them :P). Take your time find the best one that suits you (not the best one in the world). Like I do J

Well, ladies and gentlemen..

It’s the 22^nd time I celebrated my Valentine ’s Day alone. Yes, I’m the biggest loser which never celebrated this special day with someone special. Although had been in relationship (never gonna lets anyone know how many times I get into a relationship :P)but  I never really get the chances to celebrate it.

So don’t ask me what’s tips to celebrate Valentine’s Day with your love one. Instead ask me how I celebrate this day alone :P

Hmm..

If back then I think I will feel so sad on this day. I will keep thinking back all the good memories that I ever had and regret it that I was incapable to keep the relationship (not because I’m a player but there are other reasons). Yes, I will listen to some love song on this day and maybe eat chocolate (Oh, I’m just such a sentimental guy :P).

Snap back to the future, I still celebrate Valentine’s Day with love song and chocolate but not that sad anymore (maybe didn’t feel sad a bit). Not that I have give up or cold-hearted for being into relationship. It’s just that I think differently nowadays. Back then my mind is all about winning. Right now mind is all about all (like a boss :P).

Ever wonder why I’m still single? Had I found the right one? Or maybe I had a crush?

Here the answer:

Who likes being single and alone in this world? Everyone needs someone (that special one) in their life when they are sad or happy. The same goes to me. It’s just that I learned from past relationship that I’m still weak and incapable. There’s a lot thing I had to improve in my life before I settle down. I just don’t want broke people heart and letting others down because of my weakness (even to myself). I just want to be stronger and unstoppable. Give me more time and I will prove it!!

Currently, the right person in my life is still vacant. I’m not a picky person. I don’t love a girl just because she is beautiful or clever. I goes for average or moderate girl as long as she not a freaky type (that will freak me out :P). Yes, right now any girl in the universe (includes aliens) can be my right one (wow! That’s sound creepy :P).

Everyone in their life would have a few crush that come and go. The same situation to me here. Yes, I have a crush too. Like others their crush just never know they had a crush on them (that’s why it is called crush :P). My best advice is speak it out and let them know. Seriously, its feels better than you keep it to yourself. Even get rejected, you will still feel good (at least you try).  So here raise the question why I never speak out to my crush. The answer is simple. I know what’s going to happen next. Even being accepted I know the relationship won’t last because of my weakness. Unless the girl is willing to accept me as what I am (which myself also barely can accept it).

Alright that the post of the week. Here just wanna wish everyone a Happy Valentine Day. Make it a special day for your love one. For those single out there don’t get disappointed because tomorrow never die J

p.s: sorry for those that once I broke their heart.. I’m hurt too.. I know I came into your life unprepared..hopefully everything will be over as our memory faded..

Friendzoned~

Yesterday, I go hang out with my friends. We had discussed a lot topic but don’t know how suddenly talk about relationship. So I storied to my friend about my love story. And they came to conclusion I was about to being friendzoned.

That night I think a lot about the past, what we had done, where we had been; I came to conclusion that “Man, what had I done? Nothing there to hold us on.

Now, I notice that all the time I’m the one that being standing at the same point waiting for chance to came.

Heart break.. mind wandering.. hope fading..STOP!!

I just don’t want to think about it anymore. Right now in my heart my focus is to being a better man. I wanna made change.  I want everybody sees me change for better and the best, be the perfect leo but with less arrogant.

P.s: this post is not share in my facebook. Lets just keep it to myself.

(my face is smiling but my heart is crying)

Happy Chinese New Year 2012 (and welcoming the new white babe)

Hey, wassup everybody. It’s been a long time since my last post. Nothing but more important here I would like to wish everyone Happy Chinese New Year. May the year of dragon bless us with luck, health and wealth.

This post was supposed to be made on the first day of Chinese New Year but due to my serious laziness I decide to delay it (another great excuse in my life :P). My long delay is not because I am lack of idea but I’m on a holiday mood (Wohoo!!). This year I already had a good jump start compare to the year before. So much, my confident had gain back (but this time I will keep it cool because I learned from the past).

What I did during Chinese New Year??

Nothing much apart of eating, reunion with my relatives, gathering with my friends, and earning some extra income :P

What my next plan ahead??

There is still a lot to be done. But I decided to do it slowly but surely because I got 1 month before my internship. So I got a lot of time :P

What my heart intended to do next??

First of all, I want to restore humanity (sound serious). It’s seems hard but I think I can do it.

Alright, nothing to talk about anymore. Maybe on my next post if I’m not lazy :P  

before ending this post i would like to introduce my new white babe to everyone :P

Gong Xi Fatt Cai

:)

What I Gonna Do..

Hey, it’s a brand new 2012. Wonder if everybody feel more courage and energetic this year (Come on, it’s not the end of the world yet. Believe me). I’m now 22 and going to 23 this year and I have been 3^rd year in the university (gonna end my suffering soon. YEAY!).

So what I gonna do for this year? Something big? Something small?

Nobody can guess my next move. LOL.

Here is something that I gonna do this year:

1. Finish my final exam and get out from this place.

2. Enjoy my holiday and gather with as many friends as I can.

3. Spend my time with family and my responsibility as son and brother.

4. Doing the best for internship.

5. Not forgotten, I wanna let everybody see that I change; for better of course.

Strike for the goal~

Watch out for the brand new me. It’s gonna rip everyone apart (just a hyperbola :P). Actually the above statements are the thing that I can promise. Deep down in my heart there is a lot more (just like anyone else). 

My advice for everyone else is just to keep it to yourself because you know yourself better than anyone else.

p.s: I’m just bored for this study week. So I made this post to entertain myself :P & I am already entering holiday mood too. PEACE~

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012

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Happy New Year 2012 to everyone!!

Lets take a deep breath and be grateful to welcome another wonderful year ahead.

Looking back into the past, there’s a lot happy, sad, joy and fear moment that hard to be forget. The feeling like it just happened yesterday (this prove time passes very fast).

This post I will just made it short because on this New Year I will have my exam (that’s torturing while other is celebrating).

Here, I would like to wish my entire friend that will have exam today best of luck. Let’s keep on fighting. And to my family, I wish them healthy as always. LOVE THEM. For the one I care, I wish she know that I always care. Only time will prove it. For my brothers, I wish our friendship be stronger. Thanks for being my buddy all the time.

Also for those I hurt, I would like to apologize to them. I never intended but sometimes as human I do made mistakes. For my haters, I just hope that you guys grow up (start seeing things from other people perspectives and you will understand others people situation).  For those who emo, I wish that this year will be a better year for you (be more optimistic because it’s not the end of the world). Lastly, for those stubborn I hope that you learn to accept and forgive.

Alright, gonna end this post now. Below are my facebook profile pictures. Looking back at the photos, I do see changes in me. So, I suggest everyone to take 5minutes to view your profile pictures to see how much you changes.

my facebook profile picture =)

p.s: today was also a very meaningful day because I had established my blog  for 1 year. Thanks for those who view and comment on my post. Really appreciate it.